10/12/2009

Most-likely-not cancer & other nuisances

I really hadn't intended on getting back into blogging. But I found myself in a situation where I HAD to make myself focus again on looking for all the funny things in life to report---the exact reason why I had started blogging in the first place--or else I'd go crazy with what I didn't want to be the sole focus of every minute of the day. You see, August 22 was a horrible day for more than 1 reason. It's a day that my former blog regulars will recognize for a couple reasons. The less important reason for it being a horrible day is it's the day some chose to magnify their petty pranks and jabs against me instead of using the entire day for celebrating and "showering" the pending arrival of Jenn's precious baby boys. The more significant reason for it being a horrible day is that it coincidentally was also the day that a very worrisome symptom that OUR baby boy has was also magnified.

Fast forward to a month later. Hearing a doctor say it's most likely not cancer, even though common knowledge tells you "this screams cancer," doesn't help. We've been put in sort of a demented holding pattern. Cautious optimism is a hard row to hoe when you have your child's damnable most-likely-not cancer symptom staring at you in the face almost every day. Holding patterns suck almost as much as most-likely-not cancer symptoms. But the method of determining the reason is horrifying to most 40 yr. olds, so why do it to a 4 y.o. if the odds are "likely" in your favor? And so, we wait-n-see. It's a continuous game...Most-likely-not cancer symptom wasn't here yesterday, Does that mean...!? Oh, damn, there it is today. And the petty jabs continue, too. It even seems to be more wide-spread for whatever reason. Sure, its a nuisance. But thankfully, there's 35 pounds of cuteness running around yielding his racetrack-turned-sword, and practicing his weather forecast for raining jellybeans, and blissfully unaware of how worried we are for him.

It's about priorities. Craig and I place great importance on our children, as any parent would. As part of remaining strong for them in a very emotional time, we also need to see happiness in life. And that's what I initially joined this blogging group for....to see more of the funny-ness in the rest of world, and boy, could I use some extra funny-ness right about now. I'm very thankful to those bloggers who chose to remain neutral in an argument they recognized as not being theirs. But to those who didn't, I'm asking you to stop. Stop the jabs on your own blogs, stop using the comment sections of the neutral people as your forum for continuing to brow-beat me on very old news. I'm not asking for your pity (although prayers won't be turned down). We need the love and thoughtfulness of family and friends, and for those who chose to not be in those categories to just at least let go of the pettiness and allow us to look for the brighter side of life in peace.

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

You are right - it's time to Look for the Brighter Side of life. Life is so short that we need to be positive, love each other and help each other to enjoy the life we have - because it can be snapped away from us and no time left to let those around us know how happy we are that they were in our life. We should all remember what our parents taught us - be nice to one another and treat others as you would want to be treated. Love you and glad you are in my life. Mom

Stockpiling Mom said...

Haven't been here in forever but I can just say to you HUGS!!! Have no idea what is going on but again HUGS! Life is too damn short so just enjoy every single second that you have!

Alice said...

I will pray for your baby boy and peace for you.

Ruthie Girl said...

As a mom with a son with still undiagnosed challenges, I know that the unknowing is the worst part. Sometimes if we have a diagnosis (even if it is bad), we can aim to fix it.

Good luck!

Andrea said...

sending prayers... and hugs!!!

Anonymous said...

I send prayers for your little one, peace for you and love and understanding for everyone. Aunt Rae

KFuj said...

I know I texted you shortly after and promised a comment.

We are thinking of you and your family. Hugs!